My Ecstatic Life's A Circus Now Of Daring High-Wire Antics / As Well As Secrets, Too

                                   My Ecstatic Life's A Circus Now
                                   Of Daring High Wire Antics As
                                   Well As Many Secrets, Too That
                                   Render Me The Happiest Man &
                                   The Biggest Mess I've Ever Been

                                   As I Try & Balance & Find My
                                   New Footing On Territories Un
                                   So Very Unbeknownst To Me
                                   Oh What A Blithering Silent Man
                                   I'm Equal Parts Happiness 'N Joy
                                   Equally Miserable & Alone, Too
                                 

                                  What Can What Will I Ever Do To
                                  Find My Way In This Bag Of New
                                  Situations I Suddenly Find Myself
                                  I Did Not Search Actively For This
                                  Yet When Threads Of Possibilities
                                  Were Dangled In My Face I JUMPed
                 
                                  With Hope With Yearnings With A
                                  Promise Of Things To Be To Change
                                  Up My Life & Give Me An Easing
                                  Of My Dreadful, Miserable State Of
                                  Sadness - Loneliness - Of BEing A
                                  4th Party ALL Always Of Not BEing
                                  Understood

                                  And Now When An Associate Of Mine
                                  Says That She's A Saint & I've Heard
                                  This Before Makes Me Just Now Think
                                  Well Then Perhaps I'm Not Meant To
                                  Be Marriage Material That Perhaps I
                                  Should Voice This Publicly / Privately
                                  To Release Those That Are Close To
                                  Me To Free Them From Me & What
                                  Makes Me Such A Challenge To Be
             
                                  Round So That I May Find Or Not
                                  Someone That Enjoys My Company
                                  I Simply Simple Does Not Have To
                                  Put Up With Me As I'm So Very Tired
                                  Of Feeling An Outsider 'N A Pain To
                                  Others As I Am Quite Sure That Some

                                  Would Welcome Being In My Company
                                  And Not Have To Think Constantly Of
                                  Themselves BEing Saints To Be Around
                                  To Put Up To Manage To Bear BEing
                                  Around Me

                                  I Deserve Better Than That I May Be A
                                  Work I May be A Struggle For Many
                                  I May bring More To The Table Than
                                  Some Want or Feel Like Or Even Want
                                  Or Care To Handle As Their Plates May
                                  Already Be Quite Full

                                  I Cannot Say, Will Not Say, Will Not Even
                                  Try Or Offer To Speak For Them As They
                                  Are Quite Able , No Instead I'll Now
                                  Speak Up For me As This Part Of My
                                  Journey - Adventure Has Quite Tired Me
                                  I'll Just Say That I'm Really Tires 'N Sick
                                  Of In Jest Or Not Matters Not I Want
                                  None Of Hearing More Any Of This Real
                                  Bloody Nuisance, Ass-Mine Is Sorely Pained
                                  From Comments Like This!

                                  I'll Get Up And Move Along, Happily Be On
                                  My Way & Find Those That Feel I'm A
                                  Blessing To Them As They Are To Me &
                                  No More Saints In Our Conversations, We're
                                  All Human & Break & Tear & Bleed, Too
                                  Easily By Words & Actions & Body Nuance
                                  Time To Enjoy The Rest Of Our Days &
                                  Start A Brand New Healthy, Joy-Filled
                                  Chapter

                                  Hell Or Heaven : Why Not Start A Brand New
                                  Book - A Brand Glorious New Circus Act!


Sunday afternoon, September 8th, 2013  Love each other!