Monday, September 30, 2013
I Had A Feeling / A Pretty Strong Feeling / But My Defenses Are Not Up Fully / Love Let Them Down When / Entering And Taking Up / Residence In Me #7 Le 30 Septembre, 2013 A 5:34PM Lundi Tard L'Apres-Midi
I Had A Feeling
A Pretty Strong Feel
Feeling
My Defenses Are
Not Up Fully
Love Let Them Down
When Entering And
Taking Up Residence
In Me
I'm Not Very Good @
This So Outa Practice
I Knew Not To Panic
I Knew Patience Would
Help Me And Now It
Has With Such Bad News
I Should Have Reserved
More Faith Than I Did As
The Signs Matched Up- No
Not At All & I Had Such
Difficulty With Head Or Tail?
We're All Such Delicate Flow
Flowers You Most Of All
I Should Have Trusted But
Impatience Got Me Straight
'Tween My Eyes Shaming Me
I Should Have Know Better
I Ask You Now Once Again
To Add Another Reason To
Forgive Me I Know Imperfect
Am I So Selfish So Brute So
Thick-Skulled Thinking-Feel
Feeling It Was All About/Because
Of Inconsequential Little Bitty Me
I'm Working On That But Most
Working On being Adult & There
For You In Your Times Of Need
Now More Than Ever So Open
Your Door Please Let me In
LOVE MADLY while you still can! #7 Le 30 Septembre, 2013 Lundi tard l'apres-midi chez nous. Il fait toujours beau ...
Why Are You Avoiding Me - Shut Me Out / So Utterly Devastating To Me Completely?! / So Very Cruel , Really Cruel! #5 Le 30 Septembre, 2013 Lundi matin Il Fait Beau
Why Are You Avoiding Me - Shut Me Out
So Utterly Devastating To Me Completely?!
So Very Cruel, Really Cruel, I'm Hurting
I Don't Deserve This, No Matter What
This Is Cruelty This Is Utter Lack Of Sensitivity
If I've Done Something Wrong, Crossed Some
Line With You Please Just Let Me Know Be
Woman Enough, Own Up To Whatever You
Are Feeling / Reacting To Me , Or If You Plain
Simply Do Not Care Or Even Give A Shit Or
Don't Want To Be Bothered Or Have Too
Much On Your Plate Right Now - Whatever
Please Just Be Kind Enough To Share It With
Me At Least Just This Once So I May With
Shreds Of Some Dignity, Some Self-Respect
Pick Up Some Of The Many Pieces & Move
Along, Hopefully With You At The Very Least
As My Friend, But If Not Even That At Least
Try To Get Along Without You Anymore In My
Life, It Will Indeed Be Very Difficult I Will Say
LOVE MADLY, it will hurt, but it's divine! #5 Le 30 Septembre, 2013 Lundi matin et il fait tres beau!
I'm Way Over- Thinking / I'm Way Over Feeling / I'm Way Over This All ! #3 Le 30 Septembre, 2013 Lundi Matin A 9:07AM
I'm Way Over-Thinking
I'm Way Over Feeling
I'm Way Over This All!
Time To Be Simply Pay
Patient To Swim Again
My Laps To Wait To
Be Available To Be Here
When You Call Finally
Come Once Again Around
As Is Your nature You're
So Curious Yourself & To
Me Together We Make
Quite The Delight The Real
Relaxed Curious Pair That
Loves Life, Loves The By
Chance Serendipitous Feel!
LOVE MADLY< I'm waiting to all over again! Cheers. #3 le 30 Septembre, 2013 Lundi matin a 9:11AM.
Stop Second-Guessing Yourself My Love! / There's No Point Any For You To Gain/ Just Loss & Quite The Drain! #2 Le 30 Septembre, 2013 Lundi Matin a 8:39AM Et Je Commence Ma Belle Journee Avec Toi Mon Amie!
Stop Second-Guessing Yourself My Love!
There's No Paint For You To Gain
Just Loss And Quite The Drain
A Parade You've Well-Earned Now
To Be Ruined With Unnecessary Grayness
- Lowered Spirits, Sadness & Doubts And
Pain Pain Pain Outlined & Covering You
Your Radiant Smile & Laugh Now With Rain!
You're Better Than That! Believe You Me I
Know A Thing I Know You I Know Our -
My Joy In Your Company Was Instantaneous
Was Amazing Was Brilliant Was A Sunshine
Filtered And Delivered Personally For Me By
You Your Smile Your Laugh Your Excitement
Your Involvement Your Full Acceptance And
Life & It's Rich Serendipitous Experiences That
Open Fully To Them You Were - Still Are And
That Joy At The That Spans Your Whole Being
That's Liquid Sunshine And Joy Is So Clear So
Beautiful & Addictive That It Touched Me Touches
Us All For That I Am Grateful For That We All
Are As We Simply Come More Alive We Grate-
Ful So Very Much Are Filled With Your Spill-
Over Onto Us That Bask Soak It All Up And
Huddle Closer Waiting & Wanting More Of It
From You For You To Light Up Again To Be
Encore Notre Our Gain As You Reflect You
Immense Joy & Love With Life & Share It So
Free Whee Whee Reel Regale Us Freely More!
LOVE MADLY, I'm still trying to , open once again yourself to me, please let me back in! #2 le 30 Septembre, 2013 Lundi matin a 8:53AM
You've Gone Back To Him? Have You? / Maligned Mal- Bad- Aligned Again ?! #1 Le 30 Septembre, 2013 On Monday A Beautiful Morning!
You've Gone Back To Him ? Have You ?
Maligned Mal- Bad- Aligned Again ?!
You Still Desperately Want His Seal
His Validation To Validate You ?!?
Mine Doesn't Count Much Just More
Counterfeit Money More Baggage
More Things To Distract You From
The One Mistake You Believe That
You Made So Many Years Ago That
You Spoke To me Of So Quietly So
Seriously That You Had To Fight The
Urge So Constantly As You Said With
Pain In Your Eyes, Tightening Of Your
Face The Only Time I Saw So Clear
Such Emotional Conflict Writ So Plain
So Certain So Deep So Wounding
I Fought That Those Ideas Wanting Bad
To Give You Distraction To Ward Off
Those Bad Inclinations To Give You
Other Validations As You Need None
It's All Just In Your Mind All Just So
Hard Mixed In A Cocktail Tale Of
Emotion Of Feelings Of Self-Worth
Of Decisions We Are All Faced To
Make! Ask Me?!? I Think You Are
Fine. You Perhaps Read Like Me
Not All The Signs At The Time But
You believed It Was Right Then &
That's All That Does Matter Now It's
Time To Pick Up The Pieces The
Bruised Psyche The Damaged To
Be Settled For Busy Your Life Now
Is & I Wish You Would Let Me In
To Help You Some On This Daily
Mental Ordeal To Get Past The
Physical - Emotional Carnage That's
Unfortunately Yours! You Deserve
So Much Better What A Precious
Jewel Is Your Spirit The Soul Of A
Child Lost In Wonder Wanting To
Have A Wand Waved So You May
Wander The World & Sleep On The
Beach The Whole Night Under The
Stars, Clothed Or Naked But All Night
Wonderfully Magically Peacefully Long!
LOVE MADLY! I'm trying to hard, but this wall of silence is killing me slowly-softly into shreds and pieces- speak to me! #1 Le 30 Septembre, 2013 Lundi matin a 8:37 AM...
Sunday, September 29, 2013
You Came To Me Then / You Ignore Me Now / What's Changed So Completely?!? #6 Le 29 Septembre, 2013 Dimanche Soir Et Il Fait beau Et je Suis Tres Deprime!
You Came To Me Then
You Ignore Me Now
What's Changed So
Completely Now ?!?
I Feel So Failed I Feel
So Listed Black So
Much A Problem
So Very Sad 'N
Bad
How From
Such
Grace
To Such
Complete
Total
Disgrace?
Friends
Anymore?
Clearly
Never
Lovers
Not Even
In The Beach's
Cloak Of Dark
The Ness
How Come
Arrived How
This State
This Outcome?
Will We Ever
Again Be Able
To Be There
For One Another?
Fouled Have I
Our Waters
Our Futures
Any Promise
I'm Probably
Over-Thinking
Making Way
Too Trop Much
You're Probably
Not Aware Even
Of Turmoiled Me
You Say Perhaps?
Now Be A Man
The Man I Knew
What's Happened
To You Some
Silence While I'm
My Hands So Full?
Cut Me Some
Slack!
It's Not Always
All About You
I'm Busy Hands
Full No Time Now
For You - You Yo
You Cut Me Some
Some Time To
Deal With Life
There's Maybe Time
For Us But Please
Don't Hold Your
Breath Move Along
I'm Doing My Best
Can't Help Being
THE
Drama King I Am
I'm Okay Really
But Seems So
Harsh Not Being
Able To Talk
# 6 Le 29 Septembre, 2013 Dimanche Soir et il fait tres beau et je suis tres sombre! LOVE MADLY anyway!
I'm The Laughing Stock / I Laugh @ Myself / Guillotine Me Hang Me / Just Leave Me Hanging! #5 Le 29 Septembre, 2013 Dimanche Soir Et Il Fais Beau
I'm The Laughing Stock
I Laugh @ Myself As I
Don't Think You Do No
Guillotine Me Hang Me
Just Don't Leave Me
Hanging!
It Seems To Me That It's
Been A One-Way Street
'Tween You & Me As I
Reach Out To You More
Than Once And Hear So
Rarely Back From You
Is There A Reason For This
To Help me Understand And
Not Think It's Because Of Me
Do You Treat Everyone As
You Do Me Or Have I Done
Something To Offend You To
Turn You Away? I'd Feel Much
Better Knowing Why So Out Of
Touch With me You Remain?
I'd Like To be There For You,
I Really Would, I'd Be More
Attentive To You if You'd Just
Let me By Responding To Me
So That I Know I'm More To
You Than Just A Bother, Just
Another Pain?!?
Am I Any More Than That? Do
You Have Room For Me ? Or
You Filled To Full With Other
Matters? Social & Family Obs
Those Pesky Obligations That
Can Drain You That Can So
Consume You?!?
I'd Like To Be More In Your
Life, I'd Like To Be One
That Matters To You When
You Have Some Time? But
You Must tell Me, You Must
You Must Open Up To Me
Or For Now It's Bye Bye
For I Do Deserve More Than
Such A Wall Of Silence That
Makes me Doubt Your Interest
Any Value I May Have To You
Let Me At Least Be A Good
Friend!
Your Sense of Obligation Is Clearly / More Honed & Focused Than Mine / I Must Have Been A Momentary Breath Of Fresh Air #5 le 29 Septembre, 2013 Dimanche Tard L'Apres-Midi
Your Sense Of Obligation Is Clearly
More Honed & Focused Than Mine
I Must Have Been A Momentary
Breath To You
You Said That It Was A Female Thing
That Perhaps As A Male I Was More
Exempted Than You? Perhaps Being
An Artist I Could Get Away With Being
Absent More Often Less , More Forgiven
For Walking Away Not Being Counted
On To Hear Be Present For The Whole
Bloody Conversation That Bored Bores
Me To Tears, Makes Me Want To Pull
Out - Remove Whatever Remaining Hair
On A Balder Head That Might Still Be
Hanging By A Thread?!>
And To feel Like The Low Man On Your
Totem Pole Now Do You Even Ever
Still Think Of Me? Are You So Very
Busy With Your Social Responsibilities
That You Can't Ever Just Respond To Me?
Can't Pick Up A Phone, Answer My Call?
Take My Call? Respond To Any Of My
Emails & Texts?!?
You Make Me Feel Better Than Ever And
Now At The Same Tome Lower Than Ever
You're Probably Pissed Reading These Poems
That I'm Talking Of Us?!? Yet Only You And
I Know That's It's Us That I Am Speaking Of
So No Need To get All Pissed Off At Me
As I Have Published But Not Publicized Any
Of This No One That We Knows Has Seen
Any Of This, It helps Me Stay Sane My Love
As I'm Clearly Alone In This Love And Not
To Burst I Have To Bare My Heart My Feelings
Or Else Go Utterly Insane As Insane Mad As
I Am Evidently - Obvious To Me - Insane In
Love With You That Was Recent So Kind
So Accepting So Approving So Wonderful
To Me I Dearly Miss That Person So Agora
Donde Esta Mia Amiga, Mia Amore Tu Tu Tu?!?
Esta Entoces En Peru?!? Not Here In The States
Not In A State-Of-Mind That's Wanting To Be
Closer To Me, To Be Once Again By My Side ?
Has My Closeness In Affection Made Us So Dis
Dis Dissing The Other In This Ocean Of Distance?!?
#4 le 29 Septembre, 2013 Dimanche soir il fait tres beau : love madly even when not loved back!
Dastardly Cruel Joke That's Not! / You I Included In Scheme So Single-Minded! #4 Le 29 Septembre, 2013 Sunday It's So beautiful!
Dastardly Cruel Joke That's Not!
You I Included In Scheme So
Single-Minded So Sudden That
Never Occurred That You Not
You Never Signed On 'N Probe
I Now Look Keen-Clear Back
It Was Always Me Never You
Blinded I By Your Charmed
Company
You Never Crossed Me Just Were
With Me For My Insistent Two-Of-
Us Ride So With Mo Objection I
Stupidly Surmised That Becoming
An Item Were We Quickly, Suddenly
Surprisedly Wonder Lots-Awe-Not-
Some I Wanted It All I Wanted You
I Wanted Us To Rise Along And Yeah
You All Know IT By Heart, I Wanted
To Live Happily Forever 'N Ever With
Con Ustedes - You - Yo ! Man! You!
Lovely Radiant Delicate Flower By My
Side SIDE Side, So Now Imagine My
Crashing Surprise To Discover That
You Have Not Been By My Side Since
Those 4 Days 4 Nights A La Plage!
How very Bold - Presumptuous Of Me
I Don;t Regret My Intensity, My Hope
My Love My Desire My Wanting To
Be Con Tio Mon Amour Ma Jolie Fleur!
Just Not Stopping To Consider That
You May Not Have Been Wishing Or
Thinking Like Me On Any Of This
Head Game I Concocted & Flew With
Love madly if it be even wrong, #4 Le 29 Septembre, 2013 Dimanche apres-midi a 4:34PM
No Longer Nestling So Comfor / No Fort Of Come For / Of Ease Of Being One #3 le 28 Septembre, 2013 Samedi Il Fasait Tres Beau ...
No Longer Nestling So Comfor
No Fort Of Come For Of Ease
Of Being One Yet Two Just One
Of One Not Two Joined As One
I Pushed Too Hard And Frightened
Was Gave You Fright? I Do Not
Know I'm Not You , You Do Not
Say? But It's All Now Shat Shat
Shit Shattered-Spla La - La Latered
So Very Ugly Matter-Of-Factered!
Calm
For Me Tremendous Turmoil
All Under Wraps Cover Not
Recovered!
I'm Blued Into A Deep Dark
A Void I've Tried 2 Avoid!
Void Of My And Mine Mined
Favorite Colors To Boost Me
Forward
Alone Along
#3 Le 28 Septembre, 2013 Samedi , Love hard, love wildly, madly, while you can, while it hits you let it!
Well, You've Lost Me / I'm Not That Patient / Waiting & Too Much Silence / Scare The Shit Out Of Me! #3 Le 29 Septembre, 2013 Dimanche Midi Et Il Fait Tres Beau!
Well, You've Lost Me I'm Afraid
I'm Not That Patient Waiting And
Too Much Silence Scare The Shit
Out Of Me, Regardless If I've Been
Out Of Line You Could Still Throw
Me Some Or Tell Me At Least In
Writing Face To Cyber-Space, I
Deserve At Least That Much As
Clearly There's A Problem Some -
LOTS-Where And Silence Does
Not Solve Our Make IT Go Away
Being Older I'd Like To Part Ways
If We Must, or Adjust As We Must
On Amicable Friendly Up-Front
Adult Terms As I Value You , I
Value Knowing You And I Want
Whatever Can Between Us To Stay
Positive - Absolutely To Grow To
Flower, To Enrich Us - Our Lives
For As Long As We Still Have
So Tap here A Message, Whatever
May It be , To Hear At Least Some
To Speak Hearted-Minds, Gutted-
Depths, Emotional Felt Feelings Yeah
Love apssionately, you may not always be able to, do it while you can! #3 Le 29 Septembre, 2013 Dimanche midi ici en Virginie du Nord, comme il est tres beau ici en ce moment!
A Total Shutdown Of Communication / A Stormed Calm A Lightning Striking #1 Le 28 Septembre, 2013 Samedi Matin Il Fasiat Tres Beau!
A Total Shutdown Of Communication
A Stormed Calm A Lightning Striking
Sands Suddenly Constantly Melting
Now Hardening So Hardened Still So
Cold I feel It Intensely So Barren Yo!
Two Older Pots Bru Brew Bruised
Feeling Shaken Nerves Salted Tears
Stirred Kimmeled By You I Have Hurt?
Dried, Tugging At Our Thumping So
Agitated Hearts , Lost Souls Am I
Now Without A Clearness A Lost
Fiber-Less-Losing-EMPTY-Ness
A State Of " Ness " No Meanings
Both Us Needing Deserving So Much
More For My Part In All This I Am
Now Deplored Not Ever To Be
Quite Quiet Restored Need Be
S'Mored S'Mored With You Some
More? ! Ruined Our Chances ?!?
I'm Quiet Now Must Agora Si
Ahora Simply Be Busy Be Brave
Maintenant J'attends Tes Nouvelles
Mon Amour ....
LOVE MADLY NOW / TODAY! #1 le 28 Septembre, 2013 Samedi il faisait tres beau! C'est bien Dimanche maintenant le matin ...
Saturday, September 28, 2013
Me! The WILD Calls! OUT ! STRIP! BARE BE!!! Bear Be Beast / So Beastly So Naked / Ache To Naked Be! #1 Le 29 Septembre 2013 Dimanche Soir Il Fait Tres Beau Et Un Peu Froid!
Me ! The WILD Calls! OUT!
STRIP! BARE BE !!! Bear Be
Beast Without A Damn Care!
So Beastly So Naked I Ache
Ache CRAVE To Naked Be!
No Restraints No Bars No
Boundaries Warm Or Cold I
Ache Break Bold To Be Nake
Bear No Bear's Skin Just Wild
Like A Bear Like A Red Fox
Like A Snake A Cricket A
Cicadas That Have Two Bare
Legs That's All To Rub To Get
Attention Our Together To Make
Some Noise To Shout-Out At
Us To Disrobe To Bare-Skinned
To Haired To Be Cold Or Warm
To Uninhibited Be Bold Brash
Blatantly Comfortable In Night's
Cloak Of Starred Mooned Twinkled
Marvelous Unbridled Unrestricted
Raw Edged Unplanned SerenDIP
DIP DUNK PLUNK SPLAT
On A Plate Handed In Our
Glorious Grand Grinning Spinning
Spunky Splashed 'Splayed Play
Plucked Plumbed Plastered Pre
Preened Peed Partied Nakedness!
Be bold be brave, love wildly, love madly, pay the piper later! #1 le 29 Septembre, 2013 Dimanche matin a 1:18AM ... comme ca me plait enormement, tot ca , je suis naked en ce moment , oui, moi, c;est bien vrai ... et vous?!? Deshabillez-vous tout-de-suite!
I Had Forsaken My Duties / As A Friend, Replaced My / Valuable Friend Status With #8 Le 28 Septembre, 2013 Samedi matin il faisait tres beau!
I Had Forsaken My Duties
As A Friend , Replaced My
Valuable Friend Status With
One Never Discussed Or
Approved - Leaving Me - Us
With Silence And Confusion
And I Deeply Regret This :
Sorry I Am
Seeing -
Understanding
This Just Now :
How Stupid
Of Me -
Been A
Fool! I'm
Not Laughing !
#8 Le 28 Septembre, 2013 Samedi matin il fasait tres beau, love madly and pay the price later!
Except In Me As It Raged / And Lioned And Leoparded / And Lynxed And Beat #7 le 28 Septembre 2013, Samedi matin il fasait tres beau ce matin!
Except In Me As It Raged
And Lioned And Leoparded
And Lynxed And Beat-Pant
Pant Panthered, Spot Tigered
Striped - Stripped , Teeth Large
Fangs Fangled Me ! I'm So
Sorry, What Happened, Has
Happened - All A Dream That's
Caved In- Slumbered - Burned
Out Way Too Soon -
Not Time Yet
To Sleep !
Love madly while you still have the flame, the passion! #7 Le 28 Septembre, 2013 Samedi matin il fasait tres beau!
I Fucked Up - Me , I Did / Something Bad - Bad, So / Badly So Atroce # 6 Le 28 Septembre, 2013 Samedi Soir
I Fucked Up - I Did
Something Bad - Bad ,
So - Badly So Atroce
Trop Trocious Atrociously!
Sadly I To You Am So
Sorry Ass Asked For
Your Forgiveness ! I
Made Too Much I
Was Thoughtless To You
To Our Situation That
Never Existed At All
#6 Le 28 Septembre, 2013 Samedi matin il fasait beau, LOVE MADLY, you might never get another chance!
How Miss The Mark So Bad / Sad Sad So Silently / Sus Suds Suddenly #6 le 28th, 2013 Samedi Matin
How Miss The Mark
So Bad
Sad Sad So Silent
Sud Suds Suddenly
Unsatisfied With My
Acts
Acting
Alone
Sitting High Up On A
Crown Of Thorns
Now
Then
A Magical Throne
W/ The Beach 'N You
At Night
Our Palace
Just
Really Mine Now
I Guess I
Overshot
Authority
An Author
Without Permission
Yours
Sorry
Sweet Lass!
#6 Le 28 Septembre, 2013 Samedi matin a Washington D.C. Il fait bien beau ce matin! LOVE MADLY
I Needed - Have Now Been / Really Hard - Slapped - For - / Being / One Foolish Seasoned Man ! #5 Le 28 Septembre, 2013 Samedi Matin
I Needed - Have Now Been
Really Hard -Slapped - For -
Being
One Foolish Seasoned Man !
Too Quick ! Too Much Too
Over Top I've Been ! My
Loneliness Made Me Bit
Mad Bit Bad Lots So Very
Desperately Quietly Sad
With Some Moments So
Glad Many Periods Dry
Dried To Leaf Brown
#5 le 28 Septembre, 2013 Love madly while you can, pay the price!
Friday, September 27, 2013
Let It Go Let It / In Your Vulner- Able Most / Just Move Along To #3 Le 23 Septembre, 2013
Let It Go Let It
In Your Vulner-Able
Most
Just Move Along To
The Next Step , But
Let The Angst The
Troubles The Blast
'N Burn The Mad
Pounding The Edge
Hammer's Sledge
Go Away
Fly Flap Swim
Find A Way
Love madly always! #3 le 23 Septembre, 2013
I Should Never Have Assumed Anything / So Full Of Myself Of My / Self Worth To Have Let At / Least In My Mind Fancies Desires / Gone This Horribly Far Without / The Two of Us In The Driver's Seat / SORRY! #3 Le 27 Septembre, 2013 Vendredi Matin
I Should Never Have Assumed
Anything
So Full Of Myself Of My
Self-Worth To Have Let At
Least In My Mind Fancies Desires
Gone Horribly Far Without The
Two Of Us In The Driver's Seat
SORRY !
It's My Own Damn Fault! Not You
Yours Or Jimmy's And I'm Mad
I'm Making You Pay The Price
Taken Two To Tango Now Just Me
I Can't Imagine How I Have Hurt
You Hurt Things ' Tween Us Oh
No! What Can I Do ?!? To Mend
Us To Heal Us ? Then Maybe It's
All Just Me : There I Go All Over
Again! Just Forget Me I'm Too
Bloody Much Too Much Baggage
Not Worth The Pain The Head Games!
Being Forced To Move On / To Move Along / Alone / To Move Alone / To From My Distance #8 Le 26 Septembre, 2013 Jeudi soir et il fait tres beau ce soir!
Being Forced To Move On
To Move Along
To Move Alone
To From My Distance
Give Up All Ties 'Xcept
Accept Tag Once Again
Of Tarnished Now Friend
Bull-Headed I've Been!
Hard New Role So Out-
Of-Nowhere It's Come
I'm Learning My Ropes
Learning To Bend To
Will Myself To Keep My
Distance To Put All On
Hold Can I Hold?!? Will
My Emotions Turn Tides
Waters To Floods To Damn
Those Artificial Superficial
Dams We're Forced To Build
Desperate Measures Now At
Least For Me Of That I Am
Sure No Longer Can Know
Can Say No More For Sure
What If Anything There's
Worth Holding On To - For
The Bleedings Less Now
Red Everywhere Tears Still
Have Washed Not All Away
#8 le 26 Septembre, 2013 Jeudi soir il fait tres beau ce soir! LOVE MADLY always!
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