I have lived and love and like, listen more, learn extra, suffer pains in not knowing, now realizing I was never meant to

I was called out to my face more / than once , he walked twenty / steps over ourcul-de-sac to say / our midnight walk in the dark / around their yard, at first they / did not us recognize - our dog / and me sniffing around forvred / fox and just the right spot to / poop was not cool! Said twice / thrice , I listened, said it / would never happen again and / now when walking make a wide //arc around to never again there / walk and have not since much said / my tesponse so cool and deliberate / i simply am cool even when not!

I drone on yes Idrone on my self entitling thrown not knowing, nowhere understanding I don’t faith the mold

i'm an utter selfpity cruiser sore loser No one have I let in choosing, so I thought my self-others-battles are purely all mine to sulk to envy and gather all togethefmy prise my demise my utter i position mine to laugh at, smirk at, laude so loudly yeah feeling thecwear wore tears tear utter cum- pleae quick NOW such despair! so ighty is my constant falling,mydroning on and on, my self spying unforgiving yes despising ! That con a constant darkening where lightening would so served me all the better to be unobstructed mypathmyvery own, and yet I set off many drones all in the mightynameto roam, to gather much- needed informations to plan myevery new forms. I am home on the phone I am played on my iPad there's no love out there, just that illusive deal promise a surface of blurry faced fakes faking their every gesture their empty faces those smiles as about sincere as liesrepeated to make me feel so athome and comfort alone Mygut saysotherwise, myin and out soooo about stincts X Y Z 2 A B C say don't this buy into I'll be your honey, we can later talk money Come to daddy, your momma needs you, we are family and our blood calls out our names it's only in our real pain that we live at all

All we care to feel, that we can feel is another’s pain in our own pai

we drain others , toss them out, abuse, gossip, believe their lies, we don't want to think, we do not know how to feel, we never have that been that taught, simply taut, never ever real as in relaxed, only taught or shown or pushd yes, to compete, to lick, to destroy, to rob and laugh at and gloat, to watch them try to reach as they cross the moat! the crocs will eat them, we will watch with an intentness that is purely mad, our glad that we get from their destruction , puts on pause our own pain! like a climax to willingly climb, we max max lose our grip our tracks, and consumed whole , for fractions of a split second, die or worse , we live that's all we have, we root for it, we slave others so we do not have to slave, at least at orfor that, brats we are, bitches, too, carved into, branded, molded, used - shoved to that - lowliest of lowest livings that render usinefectual, and in no danger of ever waking up from this trance a promised by them romance that was never EVER meant to be as instead

dead living was always the goal the aim of others for us!

inspired by the dress rehearsal rag in part, in part, by giving you what you want, if I sugar-coat IT it simply does not ring true!

Hurry - you have tomake that bus! you don't know it, but your butts are ours and will always slave and toil to please satisfy glorify US ! Chosen by us, for us, all about us, NEVER about you!

Brattish bullshishhhhh, robberish, stealing from all those you leave t be constantly poorish by you flagrant disrespectful controlish harmish alarmish cacaish killingish hiddenish WAYS!

YOU fool foul fill flip flush flaunt / YOU are brattish bratardish boys

/ Still in school in frats con otros / Brats , WORSE than rats! Your act / Act accumulate in your male pacts / Your flying LOW is lower than LOW / Your power addictions you abuse to / Maintain your high FIX as Broke so / Really lost sad lonely greeds are / Your tickets your pardons 2 stay / Yes 4everest in THE hole in holed / Down till death swallws you whole!

The way I met my day is like the way I am greeted by my day today only different 7/31/2025

I must persist in not yet perishing! I must insist 2 stay 2 say 2be counted My presence is still needed kneeded so I pay my way my own termed sperm way Day night I eGads some still eeeeeeee Tony it's sooooo Tony NOT 2 late mate!

They say is old hat today I say Theirs yesterday was not mine no Them invaded space often leaving I opt always focus with eyes mine The feat atmy bare feet challenges Mine me myself I must screen often Oft away aahh sway not swat but In mine own it soooo play I on out

I am sunk will follow most and skirt Them's tempTaTaTazeMeSooooooTayShawns They those them legs flowers flowing Bare naked ladies in tones of pink 2 Lavenders my salvayvaisVoomvroomTions! I am wiilingly lost 2 them all yes si Shrinking still i oohhhhh open flower Share ALLi got to simple yes naked be In their presence is a dream concumss Correct consent 2 BE me mine found so Finding myself wrapped in allthe hopes I will finfmy mine me myself carry in Transported on by with along in flight Fright our shared in our ways we own de- Delights together many screen bites sad Oui oui oui oui oui wee as I may shrunk

Keener spleener spinner shouldererer sooo my right, slept, keep wrongly company with two pillows last night, woke up sooo sore! Yeah sir , Madame, Quel bore! Waste of a good night”s snore! Happy Wednesday , June 4, 2025 at 7:57am as I start to type

I si slept all wrong! I got a sleep load of right shoulder What mishap, what a slather of stab The deep sleep compunded by mushap I had not a dither a dab an ounce of Awareness the pain was growing bloom doom after slumber's swoon to announce Itself in sharp stabbing knife edge a shoulder wedge pledge to make me awake Pay dearly for not knowing what I was Going tohave to soon pay for in darkness Abdin light for not sleeping right @night! knowing not the pain accruing sharp So soundasleep in growing pain ob- Live-I-ohhh-us : right shoulder and I got these inesall messed up! must Aycloserattention to my pne finger Tappingon this iPad keyboard yeah Just ad i must plan better smlumbers!

I still wearsome of,ast night's pain! Alleve has come tomost of my rescue! Thank God ess in that I believe fever strong fervent servant to goodness us!

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I am called yeah answer Answeredswervd sworn So much nudeness sex Sway squirt squint at my Age answer tgat page! Know raw rant real rage Iam calling my calling Myalling mybilling my I am alert a real flirt I resurrect myself as I Find solace digging in Tge dirt planting my yes Rose ofSharon's to grow Up tall and flower pretty Strong correct all wrong!l